Disgusted.

Love them more

2009-10-08T23:04:00.001+08:00

Honestly speaking who read this junk of mine? Thus, I am glad that no one would have the time or even bother to enter this personal crib of mine. There is just too much to let go that I don’t even feel secure of letting it go here. The purpose of this entry is not to arouse your anger and be against _ nor I want you to hate that person. Everyone ought to commit mistakes. After all, its human nature to commit those sins. Don’t you agree? I would rather pen down and revise my portfolios then to waste my bloody precious time on something that has ended.

Two weeks to go to the big day. Preliminary Examinations results has tremendously improved compared to the previous term. Yet, it is not satisfying enough. I bet by now the intended reader would have cursing and praying to god ,satan or whoever _ bows to, asking His help to fail my Ozzz.. Well, thank you for the kind thought. I guessed that my presence is much more appreciated. Wohooo, form a FB group and gather a friend or two to go against me! I really appreciate it :] I guess that there is a saying that you just need to love your enemy more. There is not enough room for our egos and frenemy relationship in this world. Oh well, what the hell. After saying, alter ego has taken me by surprised. I totally lost all the interest of typing out a proper entry. Anti-climax indeed.

Thanks a lot, FUCKER!

P.S: Doesn’t the conclusion paragraph says it all?

16 methodical thoughts

2009-10-04T00:48:00.003+08:00

1. I’m sleepy.

2. I’m tired.

3. I didn’t study.

4. I’m feeling guilty,

5. I need to do well for the Ozz.

6. I need to study

7. I had fun.

8. I cried.

9. I laugh.

10. I’m angry.

11. I’m excited for what the future holds for me.

12. I’m hungry.

13. I’m depressed of being alone.

14. I just need to be love by .

15. I want the Ozz to end.

16. I think i’mma an insomniac.

Before I end my entry,

A happy belated sweet sixteen to my classmate, Missyella!

All the best in life and not to worry.

you ought to do well for da big Ozzz.

you deserve satisfactory results,gal!

Photos here!

Copy-cats.

2009-09-29T22:22:00.001+08:00

After much original ideas of mine kept being stolen by them, I’ve realised that there isn’t anything original in this world. In a positive light, I praise the God for not making me affiliated to any one of them. But, the temporary pain has yet to diffuse out of the body.

Stay true and original.

Sense the sarcasm?

Syawal

2009-09-27T21:30:00.006+08:00

I’m so sick of this. I have come to the conclusion that death could only tear the strong relationship that the cyber world and I shared. Yet, another failed attempt to escape from this trap. Oh well, I guess there is no solution to resolve this issues as I will always find another alternatives to get online. Tsk. Prelim results are out and I’ve improve by 9 points as compared to the term threes examinations. As i type this, I raised my eyebrows and stared blankly at my reflection. “So what the hell am I supposed to do now?” I began to question with obvious puzzlement. Strange. How? Run away from this miseries or continue to climb up to the peak of the climb? I could no longer trust the answer deep down inside me. I’ll just let life flows like a river ( weird sentence, but it somehow reminds me of a cheer with an even weirder actions.)

Enough of meeting failed expectations. indeed, the Eid Mubarak was a week ago and I really had a blast although I did not managed to collect a ransom amount of $$$$$ Prolly, economic downturn :/ Oh well, time flies when you are having so much fun with your mother. Yeah, the women is flying off this Wednesday. How I wish she could just stay on till my Os are over. As much as I don’t appreciate it, her presence makes me feel grounded. With such an aura shielding me, I would be able to focus on things so much better and set my priorities right. Hmmm, well who to blame? Its a choice that I made earlier on :(

I know teenagers tend to be gatal and miang when it comes to relationship. But i think it is more than irritating when you tend to overdo it. Sadly,it just reflects that your world just revolves around love. It isn’t jealousy. Its just that when things began to turn upside down, you’ll be wasting the tears when you began to re-read you entries. Think about it, what you got if you ain’t got love? Serious. No offence yeah :)

Hot under the collar

2009-09-24T22:35:00.002+08:00

Nope, I'm not affronted by things around me.
Thanks a million!
_|_

Hiatus: For real!

2009-09-13T19:29:00.006+08:00

I thank God for giving me this space whereby I can just vent my frustration here. I’m very disappointed with myself for not going to the extra miles on getting a satisfactory result for my prelims. I think what the teachers warned us way back in the first semester was indeed true along. How I wish I could just revert time and commit the mistakes at an earlier time so that I’ll be able to see the light at an earlier time. I think my attitude towards studying has really changed ever since the beginning of last year. To add on to the insult, my results were badly affected. ‘O’ level examination is a month a way yet, I’m not prepared. I still have the guts to be active on the world wide web and keep myself update with the entertainment buzz. I should really stop this. I do not wished to be crying over spilled milk nor to be shocked or broken deep inside when I get my results next year. I have to put a hold on my leisure times and set my priorities right. No more disappointments. And I would never let history repeat itself, Never Again! Although it looks like a faded glory, I think it is never too late to dash across the battlefield and claim victory. This is it. I’ll be idle from all of this amusement and accomplish what I need to do all along, in order to stay with my loved ones. :) Goodbye.

Obloquy

2009-09-10T23:18:00.002+08:00

I barely allow people to catch a sight of my crest-fallen visage. Yet, I’m pretty much uncertain why I often ring the blues. I know I should not allow this to be some sort of form of distraction. Honestly, I do not wish these small petty things to affect my results. Spending the day out with my dudes has taken my mind of from all the stress and the disturbance. Yet, it is only a temporary elucidation. My apologies to the two of them for my actions earlier on. I know, I must not allow the caliginous emotions to take control of me. But, I could not help it. Thanks to the cool breeze that brushed against my “rocky” cheeks, it has managed to bring tranquillity into my mind. Oh my gawd, I am completely unaware of what I’ve just blogged about. Oh well, I rather let all the problems out rather than to carry all of the burden. Oh oh oh, I love this picture :D

P.S: if you think I was being anti-climax. Fug off.

Productive,

2009-09-08T16:45:00.005+08:00

I could not stop laughing at how I looked like in this snapshot. It was as if I was having constipation or I’ve not excreted for the whole month. Anyhoo, I’m kind of dismayed upon receiving the news of my Malay results. Yes paper 2, I failed. Shocking indeed. What more paper 1. Furthermore, that paper is going to be marked, correction, has already been marked by the most experienced Malay language teacher in CTSS. I think I’ve grumbled enough. Less talking and more actions, Emman. I hope that is what I intend to do. On a side note, I think I’ve finally got a hold of the momentum of effective and efficient studying which I’ve lacked for the past three and a half years. During chemistry tuition a while ago, I was pretty much amazed of my memory work. I still remembered most of the theory principles which I’d memorized earlier on for the prelims. I think now I should start to focus more on additional mathematics and history. Fine, chemistry and biology(I swear, I fail this subject) MCQs. Okay humans, I’ve got to get back on track. Effective studying session, here I come!

P.S: Thank you. You are back :)

OH OH OH! Mother is coming back in a few days time and I’ve yet to get her a present :/

Any suggestions from the ladies?

Dear Friend,

2009-09-07T19:40:00.005+08:00

I find it a petty of your prejudiced attitude towards me. In this scenario, I’m like an action figure who you toyed around with for a couple of days. After experimenting of what these action figure is capable off, you simply lost your interest and hunt for a new toy to play with. Moreover whenever I attempt to strike up with a simple conversation, a single word reply is what I would get. How egoistic. Being a concerned companion, I asked of your well-being. Why can’t I earned that trust from you? Like how you earned mine. Why can’t I be there for you like the time that you were there for me? Perhaps, I should stop demanding answers from you. Maybe, you need to drift apart from me for a day or two. Time is what you will get to reflect of your own being. But just to let you know, I’m pretty much concerned of your well-being, friend. My shoulders are all yours if you need a shoulder to cry on. I just don’t want to have that guilty sensation of being an ineffective companion. I need you back, friend.

Without Your Lover

2009-09-06T20:51:00.001+08:00

What if you are placed into such an incident?
How would you overcome it?
Explain your answer.

Official

2009-09-02T15:59:00.001+08:00

It seems like I have chosen my fate. Very soon, I shall bid goodbye to the memories that have moulded me for who I am today. Indeed, I’m looking forward for a new and fresh start. Being a human, I ought to commit mistakes. It runs in the blood. I can’t simply avoid it. I shall just commit it much faster instead. Sarcasm? Up to you. On a side note, I’m craving for all the traditional delicacies. A weird craving but I guess patience is virtue. Oh, mother is coming back in two weeks. I can’t wait to update her with all the dramas that is surrounding me. Moreover, narrowing down a list of schools that I might be interested in Well, i shall give you < details when everything is finalized:]

How impeccable to be the highlight of the topic :)

2009-08-31T23:41:00.004+08:00

When the King of Propaganda strikes,

All I need to do is to remain calm and seek help from the Almighty. May He cherish me with all the strength to overcome this challenge is this holy month of Ramadan. You think I’m evil? Well, I happened to be just a being who has never failed to commit sins. Just to let you know that I’ve never abandoned hope that this saga would end nor have I ever prayed for the worst for you. Instead, I seek His understanding in leading us to the ideal path. Once again, when you fight fire with fire, all you are going to get is a bigger flame. You decide. It’s your fork of life. I’ve chosen mine,have you?

p.s: I'm not struggling with my predicament. I'm just learning to overcome it from a different perspective.

Willpower

2009-08-27T18:00:00.001+08:00

The last practice,Preliminary examinations. 3 papers down and a lot more to go. I shall not elaborate on how the papers were but the upcoming results will definitely explain everything. I’ve given my best for the 3 previous papers. But, I’ll give my all for the remaining papers. Pray for me? I was pretty much disturbed from yesterday eavesdropping. They mock you and judge you worst than I did. Part of me wanted to tell them off, while the remaining just remained silent and couldn’t agree with them more. Why am I struggling with this predicament? Perhaps, Fizah was right all along? Having said that, I’m off to spend quality time with my malay idioms, letters and essays.

Dear Indra F,

2009-08-25T15:20:00.002+08:00

Yes, if you’ve taken the effort to google search this.Welcome to my new blog. To be honest, I’ve forgiven your mistake quite some time ago. Its just that i’m staying away from you from getting myself from being hurt ever again. Its no point for me to point out your mistakes, if you yourself didn’t even realised about it. Anyway, I’m too a being who has never excaped fom committing sins and mistakes. Thus if i were to list down the things you’ve hurt me, it would definitely be an unfair treatment. All i’ve got to say is, I really had it all with all of this drama surounding us. I wish you all the best in your future endeavours and a million and one thanks for being a friend & my Head of Discipline Leader.

Solacity

2009-08-22T19:12:00.003+08:00

It’s only the first day of Ramadan, yet my mentality is too weak to overcome this challenge. Imagine, how would I even survive for the next 28 days. Although I did not do my usual weekend routine, I’ve managed to accomplish a few assignments at home and at the library with Fizah. Thanks a million women for sharing with me your secrets of attaining a distinction in the Malay language. Although all hope seems to be gone, I’m sure that all of my effort will pay off well provided I complete that Malay TYS booklet. On the side note, those jokes and laughters really brought tranquility into my mind. Looks like I need to get back on the books after breaking my fast. Later.

Bemuse

2009-08-22T00:08:00.006+08:00

Indeed, it has been an underwhelming week for me. Every night, i never failed to repeat the daily routine. Every now and then i've shed those tears for some unlogica and inpractical reasons.Demanding for a solution to my problems which left me all burned out to face the obstacle in these holy month of Ramadan. Although the burden has been shared with two kind souls, I've yet to come up with a solution to overcome this clif-hanger. After all, I'm just a being who happens to fall deep. Perhaps, I should just disregard this dilemma and concentrate fully on my upcoming prelim examinations. Hopefully, I will be able to tolerate and get over it soon, like what i've been doing for the past three and half years?

P.S: Thank you for lending me your ears:)

ALREADY GONE

2009-06-13T21:49:00.001+08:00

in case you are wondering,
this blog has tuned a year old and few month
but whatever.
i've moved on.
join me in my carnival ride here!

thank you blogger.
i'll be back here.
someday.

Dear Hook Up(s),

2009-05-24T21:58:00.005+08:00

this my last post.
perhaps,i either moved on
or currently on hiatus.
meanwhile,enjoy the video above!
thank you for everything.

m n emman

p.s: 22 dec is your day
& maybe the day we fell apart where i say goodbye.

Dear Hook Up(s),

2009-05-23T19:19:00.005+08:00

i'm scared, terrified & frightened .
The Malay paper is less in a week time
while the English term 3s is on this upcoming monday.
i'm seriously ill-prepared for it.
how i wish i could just run away from reality
and returned to the arms of my parents in new york.

conversation between dad & i prior to our flight to Singapore (2006 - present) ......

dad: so son, have you reconsider of staying here?

me: neh, i'll pass. i'm comfortable staying in Sg.

dad: well,you know you could always live here and not to sit for that 'O' level.

me: i don't care. .....

~~Okay,its fully my parents fault because they are not strict~~ ~~enough for bringing me back with them.~~

Fine!
its all my fault then.i should have listen to them.

but noooooooo,
i choose to suffer this agony that every teen here have to face!

oh lord,i hope everything goes as plan.

pray for me will you?

m n emman

Dear Hook Up(s),

2009-05-22T20:15:00.004+08:00

from the sudden unexpected meet up,
till touching your warm hands*.
no wonder you're hot!

" the best day of your life? "- kellie pickler

indeed,it was.

m n emman

Dear Hook Up(s),

2009-05-19T22:37:00.003+08:00

I can finally sense the pressure.
I've also think that its time to stop pressing
the snooze button and wake up to reality.
its definitely scary but,to tell the truth
o'level malay is in <>
Feces! I'm all pimpled out!
Need my sleep! Night!

m n emman

P.S:

on a side note, Jedi reunion tomorrow:]

Dear Hook Up(s),

2009-05-16T20:38:00.003+08:00

today was indeed a productive outing with my dearest friend, Ashta!
we camwhored all around the city area till the flyer.
not to forget, i think the both of us surely packed millions of pounds
in less that 5 hours.yup,from the yummy and unhealthy
chicken & biscuits to 100% fat-free yogurt .
BUT I LOVE IT!
pictures can be viewed here!

m n emman

countdown to success

2009-05-15T22:50:00.004+08:00

~~FREEDOM~~

errr, i doubt so.
although the mocks,which i was deeply ill prepared for, has ended.
on the other hand,the war have just begun.
not to mention its only a sentence long.
not even the end of an introduction.

"Why is it so?"

the answer is simple; 'O' level Malay is in 2 weeks!

satisfied?!

m n emman

p.s:

_|_ to private blogging because it makes me :(

& i'm destressing out with Ashta tomorrow :D

/\ M@+#$ = ?

2009-05-14T19:58:00.005+08:00

Praise the ALLAH!

*AMEK KAO IDAH,HAHA!*

as i felt a sense of accomplishment
of being able to complete my Chemistry SPA.
not to forget, i have a feeling that it was my best
practical ever can?

however on the darker side of life,
i can already count the maximum amount of
marks from my fingertips for my amaths paper 1.
hint hint: the maximum number that you can count with just two hand!
if i've ever got >20, i considered myself a pass
although the minumum passing marks is 40!

m n emman

Dear Hook Up(s),

2009-05-11T18:38:00.008+08:00

i'm tired, lazy and worn down.

eventhough there is no longer npcc,
which i honestly enjoyed &miss wearing the uniform with little & shiny badges and the boots,
its killing me.
why is there a need to have a mock exam and a test on the very same day?
yes,i know its for the benefit of us.however,ever since week two we've already reach the maximum gear. If my parents were reading this, i'm so sorry with the upcoming disappointed results but i promise term 3, prelims and the Os will be so much better compared to this.
OMG,i'm extremely damn random.
my apologies for wasting your time.

m n emman

p.s(es):

1)

INDRA,
yesterday was such a failed attempt on the convo! i'm so embarrased as i think i sounded like a faggot. on the bright side, at least i get to talk to R & i don't owe u you any starbucks frappe!

IDAH, aku da beli sandwhichnye barang tau! this time is smoked & pepper ham! not giving it to you :P

STRESSCLUBBERS, IMY! Outing soon yeah? this time with a new member, FAZZY!

MASHAFIZ, Oi,Nana and I gonna get Siti Hikayat to follow us. don't tell you whats the plan. you'll find out when you give me the unit camp photos!

can i start all over?

never again will i want to,

2009-05-09T23:52:00.002+08:00

readin' your unannounced blog left me
in a state of despair and confusion.
i had enough playin' the games all these while.
the track that you're listenin tells it all.
i'll rather move on than to touch the fire twice.
goodbye.

Perseverance will pay off sooner or later.

2009-05-06T21:53:00.004+08:00

remember my previous post regarding the mock examinations?
well, i think that i've learnt a lesson from this mock.
start studying NOW!
don't WAIT!

thats all i can say.
chemistry was so screwed.
biology is tomorrow and social studies is the day after.

on a side note, my maths brain is back ever since the first term.
both A&E was somehow manageable till i was touched by maths
teacher who wrote this on my recent answer script.
honestly speaking, i did not even think about attaining such results
as i did not have the time to check my regular carelessness
nor attempt the bonus question.
perhaps, God is telling me take one step at a time
and my consistent determination,perseverance and effort has finally pay off.

yes,i might not do as well for this mock exam.
however, i'm positive that i'll do it better on term 3, prelims
and definitely the Os.
i'll prove it to my parents that my weight issues have nothing to do with my results.
i'll prove it to my friends,foes,
and the all the people who resides on this lonely planet,
EARTH!

m n emman

hazel eyes.

2009-05-02T23:23:00.005+08:00

its only the mock exam.
yet,i'm not mentally prepared for it.
the stress. the content. the work load.
how about when its the time for the 'O' level?
will i still be the same? or this agony will soon perish?
God,i can only cry and beg You for mercy.
please answer my prayer.

m n emman

Dear R,

2009-05-01T22:59:00.003+08:00

i miss you.
i miss chatting with you all night long.
i miss every single night moment that we've shared.
why am i addicted to you?

m n emman.

my life would suck without them.

2009-05-01T20:24:00.005+08:00

yes finally a proper update i assume.
to begin with,we meet half an hour late and all of our
proposed plan were scrap off.
we went to town.
studied for like two hours at the nearest stressbucks.

then,we had our mini prison break moment.
& i still think the poor aunty is waiting for us with our reserved table.
anyhoo, after whcih we trained to vivo to have our late lunch
and make our way towards hortpark.
as usual,on our way towards hortpark we camwhored like no one business.
until we were approach twice to get the picture of three of us taken.

once we are satisfied at hortpark, ikea was next.
and we discuss and let our imagination run wild.
don't think dirty.
actually we were thinking of what will happen if the malay gang
were to be in ny with me.
please please santa clause make that wish come true:)
cause i know that it will be an unforgettable vacation like we had before:)

anyhoo,click here to view the photos:D

m n emman

p.s:

sabarudin,
don't worry everyone knows and have faith in you
that you SHOULD be able to be back in sec 5.
you deserve it.
however,strong,consistent effort and perseverance are the key behind it.
c'mon YOU CAN DO IT:D

indra,
thanks for applying me under your FAS scheme:D
i owe you big time :D
and and stop slacking!
cause you can make it to RJ if you start now:D

to the both of you,

Remember:

Please Stop Calling Me A Zebra Iron Love Having Colored Stripes Gold!

&

LETS WORK TOGETHER SO THAT WE CAN GO
AND HAVE FUN IN NYC!

Examination Flu

2009-04-28T20:19:00.005+08:00

MOCK EXAM?

MID YEAR EXAM?

~~"HECK!~~"

its still the same old routine where it shows
your capabilities in that particular subject.
you either PASS or FAIL.
thus, i urged everyone out there, yes you,
stop reading my blog and
start NOW!
its not too late :D
BEST OF LUCK EVERYONE :D

m n emman

note to self: rinse your contact lenses properly!
p.s to everyone: if you need to tag click here!

i'm utterly at lost of words.
i'm deeply disappointed with you & your ego.
perhaps,my assumptions were wrong all along.

butterfly fly away.

2009-04-26T20:11:00.007+08:00

DEAR R,

as suggested by someone,
i wanna go out with you :D
but i guess we should prolly start from the beginning.
perhaps,with a simple hello in our conversation:D
.............................................................................

anyhoo, i'm slowly getting on the mock exam moods.
exactly! the word "mock" tells it all.
it will never be reflected on the report book.
however, it shows where you stand among your peers
and somehow its gonna be a wake up call.
lets hope my assumption all along were right :)
2009 show me what you got!

m n emman

DEAR KAK BAI,

2009-04-23T22:06:00.003+08:00

First and foremost, i know that chances of you reading
this loathefull blog of mine is low.
but hey,there's nothing wrong to wish you

a
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY!

Thanks for being such an awesome friend who is always there
to help us(your friends) when we are in need.
Thank you for being my partner in crime when it comes to bullying you know who.
Enough said.
Wishing all you best in whatsoever things that you will do in your life :D

m n emman

i miss every single bit of you.

2009-04-20T23:19:00.002+08:00

not chatting with you today makes me so dysfunctional.
reading your past entries makes me filled with regrets.
i guessed if you are reading this you should know who you are.

m n emman.

Homecoming Day 2009

2009-04-18T22:44:00.003+08:00

Yup. It ends here.
My last parade as a cadet.
Homecoming day also marks the final day of my official CCA day.
very soon it would be the day that i'll be sitting for my malay paper
and followed by the day where i could do nothing but just to express it
with just tears of joy.

BLABLABLA.

As usual,I shall let the photograph do the talking for me.

m n emman

PS: PART 1, PART 2, PART 3

Dear Sabarudin & Indra,

2009-04-11T23:46:00.005+08:00

first and foremost , i would like to seek my apologies towards the two best friend of mine, indra & sabarudin. i've sincerely regretted my actions of just leaving and abandoning you guys behind.my actions was indeed wrong. i should rather explain to yall first before i exceute the actions which leave with too many emotions. theres just one explaination behind it which i really seek your understanding. please forgive me. i'll make up to you. i promise.

m n emman

on a side note,
talking to you for a
while was worth the wait!

i'm R-eady now.

2009-04-06T21:49:00.003+08:00

bla bla bla.
for some apparent reason,i should not even be awake
and blog during this "wonderful" wee hours.
dah lah malas.
bye.

m n emman.

note to self:

keep it to yourself.
you ain't ready to expose the real truth.

erm,

2009-04-05T21:11:00.003+08:00

i hope i'm not too late.

first and foremost,
happy 16th birthday to my laughing-gossip &" kutukx" buddy,
SABARUDIN MOHD BELSHA!!
Dude seriously without you, i don't think i can laugh my ass off.
okay how totally random like syarapunat i am.
anyhoo,may you succeed in your pursuit of happiness babe:)

on a side note,i seriously miss you.
and you keep on running in my mind.
probably running wildly.

m n emman

note to self:

get ready to hunt for
sacredly agnezious
this weekend around the island.
who's with me?

repent your zits away lovely,

2009-03-31T20:27:00.004+08:00

haruskah aku menyerah sekarang?
seperti melaspaskan batuk ke tangga?
di samping itu, mengapakah aku ingin mengaku kalah tampah berjuang?
apakah harus aku buat?
aku berasa amat letih dan juga tidak bertenaga.
megapakah aku sentiasa bertopeng supaya tiada sesiapa tahu
segala emosiku dan juga takut untuk berdepan dengan realiti?
ada sesiapa di dunia ini yang bernasib sama aku?

m n emman

burned out.

2009-03-29T20:00:00.004+08:00

considering the fact that you have to spent
10 hours of your weekend on studying.
as for me,it is extremely too much for to handle.
especially making the wrong moves of doing
10 hours straight ever since 0000 hours today.
well,i've learned my lesson.

selain itu,saya pergi ke madrasah pada pagi tadi.
agaknya hampir dua minggu saya tidak memijak pintu masjid itu.
malaslah saya mahu menulis tetangnya.
hanya allah saja yang tahu:)

aside from the normal sunday routine,
i'm starting to be even more random and high.
perhaps,you would know why.

a short one for now.
sehingga entry yang lain ya.

m n emman

note to self:

beryakin kepada rukun iman
beryakin kepada rukun islam.
for studying wise,
break it into two.
5 hours for each day.
boleh?

i want you.

2009-03-28T19:59:00.002+08:00

To begin with, i actually woke up 15 minutes late.
thus, i have shorter time to get myself ready for the lecture.
somehow,i met idah,baizurah and ain.
bused towards our destination.
well, my apologies for blogging the next part of the entry in malay
but i guess i have to start now.

Sebelum menduduki bengkel itu,saya fikir saya akan membuang masa kerana perkara-perkara yang akan dibilang semasa di situ sudah dibilang oleh Cikgu Zainab. Dengan itu,kebanayakkan daripada kami berasa kami telah membuang masa. Tetapi setelah melalaui bengkel itu, saya mengambil balik kata-kata kesat saya. Pertama, ia sungguh bermanfaat kerana tips-tips yang telah diberi oleh Cikgu yang berpengalaman itu amat penting.Kedua,ia memberikan saya lebih keyakinan untuk melulus peperiksaan yang akan saya menduduki dengan cemerlang. Mungkin impian-impian saya untuk memperolehi markan A2 akan tercapai. insya allah. Oleh itu, saya akan memberi lebih perhatiaan dan lebih fokus terhadap mata pelajaran berikut supaya saya tidak perlu menduduki peperiksaan itu pada bulan november.

Setelah selesai bengkel itu, saya keluar makan dengan teman-teman saya, iaitu Fatin,Indra dan Syahirah, di pusat membeli-belah IMM. Saya juga telah bermula memakan sayur sahaja. Saya beraksi seperti berikut kerana saya fikir badan saya amat kurang dengan vitamin-vitamin dan zat-zat yang amat diperlukan. Saya berharap selepas sebulan ia akan menunjuk kehasilan. Mungkin berat badan saya akan turun?Kami mula begerak dan menuju ke destinasi kami yang selanjutnya iaitu pusat membeli-belah yang terbesar di Singapura. Ia! Amat tepat sekali. Ia adalah pusat membeli-belah Vivo City. Di sana,kami menjengok-jengok pakaian daripada beberapa "outlet" yang berjenama. Kami mengakhiri dengan memakan ais-cream daripada Ben's & Jerry.

Kini, saya berada di rumah dan berasa sedikit gembira dan juga sedikit sedih. Saya tidak tahu mengapakah emosi saya sungguh liar. Pada saat pagi hingga petang, mulutsaya tidak boleh berhenti bercakap dan hati saya asyik berhentak. Sekian sampai sini sahaja ya pembaca blog ku.

yang sugguh beremosi,

m n emman

P.S: CLICK ME/TEKAN AKU UNTUK MELIHAT GAMBAR-GAMBAR

you know what time it is.

2009-03-22T22:10:00.005+08:00

ermmm. i have a lot of things to update. however, i don't see the point as i believe that pictures says more than just a thousand words. fine, i would write a summary fair enough?

Discipline Leader Camp
As i was the camp oic, i found myself extremely drained off by the end of the camp.At least, the energy that was used up was indeed worth it. Major improvements and outstanding contribution and enthusiasm could be seen displayed by all the DLs. Nevertheless, the MON-KEYS was da bomb among all, nah just kidding. well,click here to view the photos.

Community Resilience Day @ Harbourfront
Aside from the free gift and vouchers, IT WAS WORTH IT! The GOH is soo down to earth and a nice guy till i managed to attract his attention to take a photo with the rest:D for the majority of us, it was the first time inside a pub or a dance club whatever you call it.many familiar faces could be seen. Esther,dhivya's twin, ryzal and many more. to find out more about the event. click this.

anyhoo thats all yawl been waiting for.

term 2 here i come :D

m n emman

you were standing at my front door.
all i could do was hug you tight.
and would never let you go.
at the same time there were too many questions
that i would like to ask why you left,
but it was just a dream.
if only..
imy babe.

HAPPY BIRDDAY "SAM NG"

2009-03-18T20:46:00.003+08:00

to begin with i started of rushing to school for my amaths remedial.
it was strictly important for me to attend it as i do not wish to be forced
to drop from that subject. perhaps i've been working my ass of to understand
it.

after which,i met "SAM NG" at Vivo and keep him busy while the others
get the cake. i think he was feeling kinda emoish as his lovely lovers was not there
to occupy his spare time. made him window shop with me from one store to another.
is it just me or the price of basic clothing line here is getting more expensive compared
to the states? darn,how i wish i could be back there and shop all night long.

anyhoo, back to sam ng story. ermmm. yeah, we waited under the hot burning bright sun
at the sky garden/park. then,we suprised him with a birthday song and a cake.
instead of feeding our blissful stomach, daniel smashed the cake into sam's face.
in you face sham! we proceed to have our lunch. then end our day with a movie called race to the witch mountain.

beside me was daniel. beside him was hafiz. beside hafiz is asila and sam. we wonder have they been doing in the dark^^personally, the movie can be realte to us,the jedis. okay not the jedis but basically the 5 of us. okay peeps. ermmm. click here to view the pichas!

ermm.

m n emman

anti-stressclubbers day?

2009-03-16T21:05:00.006+08:00

for some unknown or epic reason,
asila did not pick up my call
nor she replied my text message.
thus,fazzy & i went out today.
nana can't make it. so as aqeedah too.
siti hikayat aka ainul hikmah, is mia?
i've come to the conclusion that the stressclubbers
are busy with each of their individual stressful activities eh?

anyhoo,we met up & vivo city.
gossiped.
watched Dragonball Evolution.
it was really funny to watch how faz reacted than watching
the movie itself.
if the others was there,it would make my day.
overall,i'm glad that i took the day off.

on a side note,will be heading down to school tomorrow
for planning of discipline leaders camp and of course revisions for amaths.
after which will be paying a visit to the gym & the pool.
a short one for now.
perhaps on thursday it would be a longer one.

m n emman

quick fix,won't get you well

2009-03-15T21:52:00.005+08:00

"how irony it is when dejavu happens?
you took cared of all the precautions yet
favoritism still plays the vital role in the situation.
i sure know how she felt a couple years ago.
anyway,why should i be bothered about it
all i know is that i've gave my all."

anyhoo, that's the update for few weeks ago :D

and heres the current update.

back from unit camp wiht all energy drained and burned.
Asila, cheat my feelings for not taking any photos from my camera
instead,she uses "mashafiz-es" slr.& if you are reading this
i won't lend you mind when we go out :P so yeah put the blame on
her cause i won't be able to blog about it,
anyway, it was the last camp (as cadet) for the NCOs
and we were really really bonded both ironically and covalently.
oh yeah, CONGRATS to future SI BILI & TENG YEE for your nominations.

on a side note, the first term break has offcially began.
plans for succeding in the amaths re-rexam ,the Os,
is already prepared. and i'm ready to return to the nearby gym
after few years of disappearance,

thats all for now.

m n emman

High Rope Challenge

2009-02-28T19:40:00.004+08:00

yeah,i know that majority of you readers out there is dieing to read a proper entry by yours truly.

To begin with, CTNPCC was the first one to arrive at Camp Resillence(sp?).While we wait for the event to begin, we settled down and begin to discuss unrelevant stuff for the next few miuntes/hour?as the clock ticks, more & more units arrived and we begin our the HRC.We kicked start with ARC( i think) & i did participate in that.I swear to you.The moment you look down, fesr begin to enter the hallways of your mind. Instead,i decided to close the door & begin to sing, My Life Would Suck Without You, See You Again, Matahariku & other craps, & soon i found myself standing on ground.It does help,trust me.

Then,we proceed on to the tunnel & bloody toad, i screamed like a girl,i slide down to what it seems to be a pool surrounding of "frogs."(p.s: fizah,was super noisy.all i can hear is she shouting pussay most of the time.)

Next thing i find out is i'm climbing a wooden pole and i'm finding a hard time balancing myself.It was drastic.I felt like some power ranger scared of heights of their megazords:DAgain,Emmans' trademark. I sang the titanic song sang by Celine Dion and strike a balance!Some how,i was again drifted to the addicted tour and i could hear kelly shouting "jump" in my head. So yeah i did jump after hearing the whispers in my head and managed to grab that pole thingy.

Yes,soon it was lunch time.Again,we started with a tick tock cheer & eat.We procced to our next station,which is Flying Fox. Rudie & I was the second pair. So we dashed up and climb up the steps as fast as we could as it was about to rain.Yes,yes instructors fastened our stuff all that. We were too excited that on the count of 2.5 we've already jump off and make ourselves down. On our way down,we were like laughing our butt off.Dhivya & Teng Yee was the last pair from our school to do the mentioned activity while the rest didn't get a chance.

Overall,it was a great last ubin experience with my squadmates.I've seen familiar faces. Somehow,i did not manged to spot most of my ATC & Survival Camp group mates. Perhaps, i was not adventurous enough.sorry yawl!anyhoo,it was worht the tanned.thats all for now.click on the link below to view the pictures.

Part 1

Part 2

m n emman

uno dos tres cuatro

2009-02-27T22:17:00.002+08:00

HRC(to some, ATF) is literally tomorrow.
and i'm feeling so high about it.lets hope that
i'll be back in one piece from ubin tomorrow
& will finally shower yawll with a proper entry.

m n emman

dear cikgu zainab,

2009-02-26T21:16:00.005+08:00

i know you always bloghop around. Thus, i really hope that you are reading this post.first & foremost, i've regretted my actions,behavior and attitude
towards you and the language so far.indeed,most of us was stunned
upon seeing tears dropping from your eyes.perhaps, that is the final
alarm that we need in reminding us that our exam is approaching in
less that 3 months.from the bottom of my heart,i hope that you will
forgive all of us.we seriously regret taking you for granted.
also,i hope that you'll give us another chance for us to turn over a new leaf
so that we could work together and strive to achieve our main goal.
A distinction for the language.

m n emman

HOAX

2009-02-23T21:54:00.003+08:00

it ain't shocking when people have something against me.
i've been bloghopping around and i spotted that my name
was used to spam some other innocent being
tagboard.

this goes to the coward,
bloodyhellyamotherfcuker.
don't cha have anything better to do
aside from spamming people's tagboard by using my name?
what a lame pathetic fool you are.
the only thing that you had in mind
is to pollute some innocent being blog by using my name
bloody asshole!

perharps,i should ask you this question.

"WHYYOUWANNABRINGMEDOWN?"

m n emman

Hoedown Throwdown

2009-02-22T09:54:00.002+08:00

i'm actually feeling super drowsy and
my voice sounds like a toad giving birth.
(i know it doesn't make sense)
well,actually i'm as sick as a cow.

yet,i'm entertaining myself with this dance moves that i'm learning.
well,its from the upcoming Hannah Montana Movie.

thats all i have for now.
can you hoe the down of the throwdown?

m n emman

happy valentines day.

2009-02-14T14:28:00.002+08:00

day by day, the amount of work load increases.
and the world wide web is getting boring.
the temptation of deleting this blog is extremely high.

kindly accept my sincerest apology for not giving
a proper update of the snipets of my life.
to be honest,its getting dryer by each day.
its either school work or NPCC trainings.

wishing you,the greatest human beings on earth out there ,a
happy valentines day!

m n emman

p.s: thanks to everyone who gave me
friendship/valentines day gifts:D

matahariku.

2009-02-09T21:59:00.003+08:00

how i wish i could express myself with this.
it ain't emo.
its just a roller coaster ride of life.
i'm sure you've been through this too.

m n emman

moodswings.stress.whats next?

2009-02-08T21:10:00.005+08:00

i guessed you can read the current state that i'm in.
i just don't wish to scream it out loud here.
okay lets proceed to the proper entry.

i got my 12 hours of sleep.
i woke up and realized that its already 10am.
so i took my time and get dressed.
initially,we were supposed to meet by 1330 hours.
end up, Rudi & I was the first one to arrive.

anyhoo, *censored*
other than that, i burn up
most of my calories and continue
leaving an anorexic life.
( nah,just joking for not eating breakfast,brunch & lunch,)

oh yeah not to forget.
Asila who claims he is her best man was there.
i know i'm bad with names.
i forgot the name.
sorry sorry strawberry.
all i know,Rudi was damn pistt off with him.
after which, Rudi & I ran and
made our way towards the MRT station.
Gosh Indra thanks to you i'm super exhausted now :(
well,thats all yo.

m n emman

p.s:

"ASILA, are you blind? dia hawt?" that is what Rudi said.
i'm neutral:D

thursday night.

2009-02-05T19:27:00.002+08:00

another bald attempt to write a proper entry.
to be honest, i've been telling myself to start to work hard
as the battle against the 'O's will begin sooner or later.
intead,i'm still in my bloody holiday mood.
well, looks like i have to start a fresh starting from this weekend.

anyhoo,i've submitted my SPF-NPCC nomination form to the OC.
i do not have high expectations of myself in earning that badge.
this is probably due to me slacking and missing out so much activities
while i was in my lower sec years.
i'm currently assigned to another big project before i pass out.
i will be planning the remaining training till lets say june.
okay too much leaking of information.

lets change the subject.
RAWR!!!!!!!!
i'm in the need of a new set clothes.
okay totally random.
actually,i'm rawring about the Hannah Montana Movie.
please please please.someone tell me.
when will it debut on the big screen?

alrightos.
hopefully,the new sec one cadets will be joining us tomorrow
eventhough someone forgot to make the annoucements.
no high expectations yawl.

m n emman

sucks.

2009-02-03T21:22:00.005+08:00

(cousin wanie & I,on our way to the istana :D)

for some unknown reason,i have the urge of blogging.
perhaps,i just can't express my thoughts or feelings to anyone
who i assume do not know the current driveway that i'm in.
i should set my priorities right.
instead, i burn up my midnight oil on blogging.

should i start by confessing?
or maybe just scream it out loud?
after all,i'm a teenager.
and my emotion are imbalance.
probably due to the unstable hormones.

why does it have to affect me when
i told myself that i've actually have gotten over you?
am i lying to myself?
aren't i being truthful enough?
perhaps that i could just sense & feel you everywhere i went.

every night, i wished that i could just fade those memories
that we shared together.
yes,its been about two years now.
but why must the past haunts me back?
the music played over the radio,
the saved conversation &
the other of moment bliss.

how i wish i have the courage to just say
those things to you straight onto your face.
but i would rather prefer screaming it
through your ears.

when will it end? all i can do now is just keep praying. till the day comes.

m n emman

p.s: indeed, i can relate the current situation that we're in
with the blog song of mine.

CTNPCC FIRST SATURDAY TRAINING ( 2009 era)

2009-01-31T20:39:00.005+08:00

it has been a while since i've updated

prolly, i'm too miserable suffering with
my final years.well, i shall put
that thought aside and begin with
a fresh sense of entry.

i do not know what the real reason
behind my topic for this entry.
somehow,i have the urge of writing
this down irregardless whether
they read it.or not.

" first and foremost, i would like to raise this issue up. its actually about effort & pride.After organizing a kinda successful Muster Parade together with Bili, there are so many thoughts and conclusion running wildly in my mind. i shall just keep it short and simple. I just hope that all the cadets who have attained the deserving badge/ranks , are proud of wearing it and pinning it up on the navy blue uniform of yours. It really shows all the effort that you've put in to attained it. However for the minority of you, I advised you not to abuse what you've been given & also respect your peers.Help them when they are in need. Never leave them behind. Thats what I've learn so far. And honestly speaking,I've regretted my actions before. But, I really hope that you would be willing to accept the changed. Not to forget, Congratulation to all CTNPCC CADET FOR ACHIEVING YOU BADGE & RANKS!!!!!you guys NP-ed! "

enough of np. time for my leisure time.
OH GAWD,I SWEAR I've been looking forward
for today as its the once & the last time
that i would be able to go out for leisure purposes.

to begin with,again, i met idah at City Hall MRT.
Giving her the reason that my "sister" is performing
a gig somewhere in Marina Square. well
being a huge fan, i know everything. except that,
idah doesn't. shes not a huge fan. but,just a fan.
oh well, watch the video below and you will the rest of the story.
anyhoo,click here to view the pictures from her sweet sixteen.
if you have noticed,i do not take too many pictures because
my battery was running low.
overall,it was indeed a memorable one.

thats all.

m n emman

p.s: if you wanna know whos the sister.
listen to the music played in the video clip.
XP

SWEET 16

2009-01-26T09:27:00.004+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16 NUR RAFIDAH FADIL!

"...THANKS FOR BEING SUCH A GREAT FRIEND
THROUGH OUT THESE YEARS. YOUR PRESENCE
WILL ALWAYS MAKE UP SMILE & LAUGH
NO MATTER HOW HARD THE SITUATION IS.
I WILL NEVER FORGET YOUR
"KETUPAT-BASI" & THE WAY YOU SLEEP!
ROCK ON GAL!
I TOLD YOU SO, I WILL UPLOAD
A NICE PHOTO OF YOU!..."

m n emman

p.s: your present is on its way :D

too much of disaster movie.

2009-01-25T11:28:00.006+08:00

currently,i'm rotting at home

revising on my chemistry &
reading my eclipse.
last night,i have the weirdest,funniest
,bitchiest dream cum nightmare.
* i shall not elaborate about it any further.*

oh well,mom will be going back to NYC on tuesday night.
& i'm so gonna spent all the time i have with her.
since,i will not be returning back to
the states during the summer :(
there goes my new summer collection
of H&M tops & jeans:(

also,i've spent a few hours bloghopping &
tracing my blog readers. indeed,it was interesting.
but i've also come to the conclusion that,
some of their layout for their entry is
some sort congruent to mine.
i'm not boasting around. but its just
that i find it awkward but fascinating at the same time!
m n emman

p.s:

RUDIEEE ,
QUICK ONLINE!!
I WANT TO TELL YOU ABOUT THE DREAM!!

NUR ASILA,
COME BACK FROM JAKARTA WITH
MY AGNES MONICA AUTOGRAPH!
I NEED TO TELL YOU THAT DREAM!!!

jedi training session.

2009-01-23T21:43:00.005+08:00

to begin with,it was the lunar new year celebration today.
some old usual line up,but i bet most of us enjoyed
the couple dance thingy, the magician show & nevertheless,
the game segment of the concert.

then,i stay back for the chemistry remedial.
seriously,i think thats the only chapters that i've understand.
lets hope that i'll do well for the upcoming common test:)

went back home. dresses up & proceed to bt timah plaza.
bought the last copy of eclipse from the popular.
to my horror,i've discovered that
i was suppose to be at beauty world instead.
well thanks to daniel,i made a fool of myself
while walking to my destination.
but i lost 3kg in just few minutes!

soon hafiz & asila joined.
in the end,we pool-ed for two hours.
met LIYANA for dinner:D
didn't enjoy my dinner though.

anyways,thats all the narrative entry i have for now.
click hereto view the rest of the photos:D

m n emman

CCA OPEN HOUSE 2009

2009-01-21T21:48:00.002+08:00

to begin with,its the UG CCA OPEN HOUSE today.
indeed,i was feeling super nervous till i screwed
here and there during the presentation.
i received a comment from Mdm Lim,
saying that it was original & i did not
show any sign of nervousness. HEH :D

anyhoo, there were a series of events
that i do not wished to elaborate any further.
except for this part,when someone gave a
comment on my NPCC UNIT!
DAMN YOU!
i have no grudges against you
or your cca as a matter of fact,
YOUR HEAD& ME is like perfectly FRIENDS.
she so do not deserve anything like this!

also,an officer gave a feedback on me.
which i find it really true.
i'll try to change.
change that i believe in :D

thats all. click here to view the photos form todays' event.

m n emman

ASPIRE OH-NINE: THE CONFIDENCE TO LEAD,THE HUMILITY TO SERVE, THE RESILLENCE TO SURVIVE

2009-01-17T18:49:00.002+08:00

ASPIRE CAMP WAS
(insert what you want to crap about here)
Overall,i enjoyed the Salsa Dance & the Night Walk!
the scene,the henderson waves, the walk,
ITS LIKE SABARUDIN'S UNIT HIKE!!!!!
Rudi, i think they stole your ideas. Heh.
as for the rest of the activity i have no comment.
but, i really do enjoy the camp:D

'O' Leve' is next.
(Fatin, i bet you know why is it spell like that :D)

m n emman.

MY LIFE WOULD SUCK WITHOUT YOU

2009-01-14T19:11:00.002+08:00

THE WAIT IS FINALLY OVER!

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
What you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Anyway, I found out I'm nothing without you

Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me

And honestly
My life would suck without you

Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you, but I can't let go
Oh yeah

m n emman.

aspire & WORK HARD!

2009-01-13T18:05:00.006+08:00

to begin with, yesterday was the released of the GCE 'O' Level results.
it sounds like the principal was deeply disappointed with some of the students.
i shall not elaborate about it further.
less than in a year time from yesterday,i will receive my results.
hopefully, i'll be the one crying and go loco all over the school campus with satisfactory results.
in order for me to achieve that dream of mine, i will have to start it from now:]
also,lots of emotions and expression can been seen once my dear seniors received back their results.
well,i would like to congratulate them for their hard effort in getting the results that they wanted:)

on the side note,tomorrow is the ASPIRE '09 Camp.
i'm so not in the mood for any camps.
lets hope that the program thats been lined up for us is a memorable one to end with:)

m n emman

the moment you stared right into my eyes,
i remembered the past.
i remembered how sweet it was.
& i remembered how you deceived me.
its hurtful, yet lovely at the same time.

confession

2009-01-10T10:38:00.002+08:00

i shall make this clear once and for all.
i'm going to suck it up whatever obstacles that i have to go through.
no matter how easy i try to make peoples life to be,
my effort had never ever been appreciated.
i can also conclude that all of my effort has gone to waste.
thus,i shall not waste my time to prove my worthiness.
after all,i'm indeed a failure.

and to the person who thinks i got a problem with you,
* & who communicate through ASILA*
YES. I USED TO HAVE A BIG PROBLEM WITH YOU.
you should know what your mistakes were.
after all you're new & i'm only left with a few months.
there is no point for me to keep on complaining
& showing attitude to you. its useless and like
you've said before REDUNDANT to do so.
after all,i've forgiven you & moved on.
however if you still wish to keep your grunges,
go ahead.be my guest. i'm fine with it.

goodbye oh eight.

2008-12-30T19:39:00.003+08:00

2008 is ending in a few days away.
which also means that 2009 is on its way in just a matter of time.
well,i would like to take this opportunity to sum up my life for this year.

certainly for sure,it was a rough beginning.
complications and a lot more.
also,i've meet new people in my life.
some accept me for who i am. while,others take me for granted.
at the same time, i lost a few friends which i do not wish to elaborate about it any further.

on a side note,i was deeply up sad that i was not there to be with one of my loved ones
who returned to the Almighty.it was hard at first. but i know he wants me to move & he is always with me,guiding me as my guardian angel:]

the Almighty also place me on various obstacle.
which i have to say that he will NEVER test his people if they could not overcome it.
on the contrary, i managed to overcome it.
nothing come simple in life.
i always have to face the bitterness in order to complete the obstacle.
in conclusion,i believe that i've come up with one of a solvable solution which
i'm indeed proud of myself.

well,its not always bitterness in this year.
theres also the bright side of life.
i was entrusted to two leadership roles/position.
which i assumed that most of you already know.
as i've said earlier,i will always do my best
no matter how tough it can get at times.
& i'll assure you guys that i'll make you proud.

also,i'm deeply touched with my family & my loved ones.
they will always motivate me & be proud of who i am & what i do.
without their support & encouragement,i would not be able to
pull myself together and realized that its not the end yet.
however,its just the beginning.
i'm super blessed with what i have.
and i do not wish that it could be taken away from me that easily.

in general,the year 2008 was a roller coaster ride for me.
at times it is be scary.
however when you learn to overcome the fear and horror,its an enjoyable ride
that you will never forget.

goodbye 2008.
lets put our hands together & pray that 2009 will be a better one.

& i wish all the people out there a Happy New Year!

m n emman

one day.

2008-12-29T19:07:00.003+08:00

basically today, i went back to school
for the student body meeting.
i'm so so so happy to see my
warey baba cliques which i really missed them alot.
then it was indra's opening address to the dls.
and we also celebrated his & de wei's birthday.
& i always did my closing ceremony for
any birthday party which is;
CAKES ON YOUR FACE:D

later,i met shafinah to celebrate his birthday (again)
at VIVO CITY(AGAIN!)!had CAKES ON YOUR FACE AGAIN
and a few photoing session using my self-timer d50x.
had early dinner at banquet and i proceed back home
before 7pm due to my curfew.

i guess thats all i have to update.
you can view the photos here!
m n emman

Karaoke Night

2008-12-27T19:55:00.005+08:00

basically today i met aniah,to do some malay survey
thingy at NTU. i find it okay. but,there was one part
that i had to say a really sexual-oriented sick sentence
without even laughing.i spent like 12 tries just to get it right!

Then,had a stressclubber meeting.
location: stress-KARAOKE-club.
so met dearest Nana at JE.Then, met Aqeedah
at Clementi and cabbed to the place which is
located beside Hard Rock.

*Cinta Ini/Kadang-kadang tak ada logika*
you guessed it!We started off with Tak Ada Logika.
followed by a lil' kelly clarkson, malay jiwang song
and a final kick off with a some shah rukh han song.
videos is with Aqeedah.

again,i had to leave early due to my curfew.
sorry ladies.overall,it was indeed a fruitful
and a productive day:D

thats all. click here to view the rest of thevpicture!

permisi!

m n emman

happy boxing day,

2008-12-26T23:57:00.003+08:00

i have to say i really wore myself down

ever since i'm back from the states.
which i find it a good thing after being
a loner shopping at fifth avenue
for quite some time.

anyhoo,today i had to attend the meeting
with the officers and the squadmates.
i shall not elaborate further about that.
it somehow ended much much
earlier than i expected:]

after which the apprentice had a jedi
meeting cum makan time with
Mashafiz,Daniel,Sham & Mervyn?

oh did i mentioned that Mervyn is the new ci?
Welcome back to the unit Mervyn!!
& to Asila; better go for June'09!!!
then,i train-ed home and snooze off.
started listening to my pre-demos here
& then but then i decided i would not
touch it till o-levels are over?
then,i managed to pull idah to play online
karaoke game challenge thingy.
and she keep choosing girls song which
have high pitch:(

anyway,thats all the update of my average day.
will make more of a productive one tomorrow or
later in the afternoon.

m n emman

p.s:

dearest bestfriend,
cheer up.that slut seriously got onto
everyones nerve without she herself knowing it.
i personally feel that she doesn't realized that her
bitter actions can really harm people feelings.
ignore her is the best decision for now :]

DECEMBER BABIES

2008-12-24T19:45:00.004+08:00

Basically today we celebrated Sheyra's belated &
Indra's advance birthday.
i am to lazy to elaborate about it.
but,we sure do enjoy ourselves.
after all you know who organized it.
once again,i'll let the photo's do
the talking for me.
so,click on the link below!

Permisi!

m n emman

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4

unstable emotions

2008-12-22T21:04:00.002+08:00

i really did not see this coming.
just me seating here, typing out a boring entry.
well,i don't see the future.but,i do see the past.
it does hurt me a lot knowing that you left not too long ago.
but,why can't i get over you & just moved on?
perhaps,i really do like you.
i remembered a year ago,we were constantly
talking and chatting.we managed to keep each other
occupied and hear common desires & dreams.
but,now its all broken.
a broken dream.

m n emman

TWILIGHT

2008-12-20T22:04:00.004+08:00

First & foremost,a Happy 15th Birthday to Sheyra Hozairi!

Seriously gal,without you in this world it won't be the same.
you really bring joy and laughter to your friends which makes
us wanna be with you more.
also,my life would suck if you will not be my patner-in-crime in
critsizing Fina.
oh well,have a great one!
stay cool & lovely always:D
:
:

yes,yes,yes!
i'm back from my destress therapy session in new york city.
on my way back here,there are so many dramas that i do not
wish to elaborate any further.
basicly today,we(my family) started off having a loud session
of discussion which i kinda' expected.
somehow,i managed to earn my freedom to spend time
with Asila & Mashafiz.
initially,we plan to take a photo session at
botanic garden.
due to someones "excellent showcase of vocal" which caused the weather
to be dark,we decided to go ahead and watch twilight.
yes like NPCC,its our wet weather program:)
as usual being our normal self,we start making jokes before,during
and after the movie itself.
it was really a good romantic movie which i find it inappropriate
for Asila.(I bet she is dreaming of kissing either B or S,just like in twilight!)

well,a short one for now.
will blog soon.

permisi!

m n emman

i'm coming back.

2008-12-16T10:56:00.005+08:00

i so can relate this blog song to
the current situation that i'm in.
its hard leaving the place that you call home.
especially knowing that you will not be coming
back anytime soon. but,i have to stay strong.
cause i know that the people around me
will be supporting me in whatever things that i'll do.
yes, i admit that this entry is a lil' emo-ish.
but hey,its not wrong.

anyway,i'm also looking forward to be back.
get to hang out and shop(haven't i had enough?)
with my cliques.

asides from leisure time,there is also a need
to spend quality time on school works,
ctnpcc admin stuff and few DL stuff i thing?

oh well,i guess this is how 2008 fold for me.
i got to get going.
need to do a full load of dirty laundries
and pack them into the luggage.
i hope it doesn't overweight.

permisi.

m n emman

p.s: indra,if you are reading this. keep yourself free on 18 december ya!
goodbye everyone back here! will be thinking of each and everyone of you!

CHRISTMAS COMES EARLY FOR ME:D

2008-12-15T10:51:00.003+08:00

well since we are leaving on tuesday morning,

we have decided to open up our christmas gift/packages.
i received a new travel bag pack & few money from the grands
a jansport tee from my uncle ben & aunt maureen.
a new leather wallet from Nana.
and a barnes & nobles gift card.

okay.
guess what my parents got me for christmas?

let me tell you a story.
remember my blog entry on Christmas Wish(es).
one of my wish came true.
but, DANG so much better.

instead of
i got,

I'M LIKE SUPPER SHOCK WHEN I SEE IT!

Oh well i shall spent quality time with
my new camera.

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m n emman

last saturday in nyc.

2008-12-14T11:44:00.003+08:00

and thats the Farnell's christmas photo for the year of 2008.
look at me.i always look horrible!
what have i done wrong?
i wash my hair.blow it. still, i got hat hair on:[
enough of self-praising all that crap.

Anyhoo, after taking the christmas portraits,
we went to watch Slumdog Millionaire!
it was wicky-terrificky-AWESOME!
you have to watch it!
i love the ending.it reminds me
of SITIJOMINAHASILA!
it ends with a signature BOLLYWOOD STYLE!

oh well,i still have not wash my laundary.
or even pack my bags.
yieppp!
& i can't wait for tomorrow!
I'M OPENING THE XMAS GIFT!
*CLAPS!*:D

i guess thats all the updates
for my slutty life.

Permisi!

m n emman

KAWIN MASAL

2008-12-13T11:34:00.004+08:00

*photo credits to kapanlagi.com*

well,here i am again typing a random entry.
i know what else can i update on
since all i do is shop,shop & shop.
by the way,i got two tops from H&M:D
on the other hand,i've been watching lots
of indonesian sinetrons on YOUTUBE.
you guessed it!its KAWIN MASAL!
at first,it really gets confusing but in time
or episodes you will understand it.
i bet Agnes Monica is going to win another
award for that amazing acting of hers!
GO NEZ!
Enough of Agnezious.

thats all.

permisi!

m n emman

p.s: i'm seriously excited to be back.
but,for the past few days you seems to be unhappy.
i'm not sure whats the real reason is.
you are making me confuse.
i just want to let you know that i'll be here
for you no matter what.
& not to mention that i always love you.

homesick.

2008-12-12T07:33:00.005+08:00

imy people!

YES, i am homesick!
in a few days time,i'll be seating for a
18 hours flight back to study-land, Singapore.
i kinda miss a lot of things back there.
however,i think i'm leaving with a heavy(heavier,i guess)heart.
this may due to the fact that i want to do so many
activities/things before i jet back:] perhaps,i should
make a list of what i want to do when i'm back in Singapore.
i definitely have the stressclubbers & my cliques on my priority list:)
at the same time i need to get in shape before the last year of
school begins.also a shopping outing with
bff on school necessities- shoes,bag,stationary etc.
oh well a short one for today.

permisi.

m n emman

p.s: not forgetting teasing *you know who & i'm giving u a big clue with red*

christmas wish(es)

2008-12-11T10:41:00.004+08:00

the day of giving, joy & laughter
is exactly in 2 weeks from now.
once again(thrice,i think),i will not be
able to celebrate it with my family here or
better still at the big apple. oh well enough of the BS.
Lets cut to the chase. My main purpose of
typing down this entry is to share my
X'MAS ~~WANNA'~~ NEED LIST!
*list go in order of merit*

1. YOU!
not you but i bet you know who you are =D

2. NIKON D90 + 2 Lenses.
irregardles whether its used or new.
i really need it so that i can upgrade
and improve my photography skills!

3. APPLE MACBOOK AIR
i seriously need to upgrade my
personal laptop. i've been surviving
with this technology for the pass three years.
anyone?

4. Agnes Monica Official "GODAI AKU LAGI" T-SHIRT.
* i want them all *
its a weird tee but, i LOVE it.
perhaps with NEZ autograph on it =]

5. MORE DESIGNER BRAND CLOTHING & SHOES & ACCESSORIES .

see i don't ask for a lot.
oh well,thats all.
time to plan for it.
idah & sheyra help moi please :D

adious!

m n emman

KELLY CLARKSON - NEVER AGAIN (best performance,yet!)

2008-12-10T07:47:00.005+08:00

i'm so bored here.
how i wish my ZETAs were here with me
to enjoy the nice cold chilly weather
and the everlasting shopping experience.
lately,it has become my hobby.yup,shopping.
and i've made such a huge mistake.

yes,i agree.i lived somewhere at the equator.
and my purchases are all on winter clothes,
long sleeved shirts/tees and thick trousers/jeans.
and i have to,seriously have to spend the remaining
on the clothes that i can put on in Singapore.

oh well,i'm bored(again).
YOU HAVE TO PLAY THIS VIDEO ABOVE.
yes,its the best KC performance of that single of hers.
how i wish i was there to be blown away with that
strong vocal of hers.listen to 3:21 till the end.
you can really tell shes super pist with someone.
& it gives me chills and goosebumps.

thats all.

adious.

m n emman

p.s:

TAKE CARE RUDI,HAZWAN,NATASHA,NAFSIAH
MDM ERDA & THE REST WHO IS GOING FOR OBS(SABAH)
HAVE FUN & TAKE GOOD CARE FO YOURSELF.
IF YOU SEE ANY "WOMEN" IN THE JUNGLE
DON'T FEAR,ITS FINA DOING CWO!
:D

& Fina, i was only playing around
with your name so that they
can be relax.no offense babe!
XD